Sadly, I later learned that all five of our "saves" had died by the day's end. The news was a little tough, but I still took pride in doing my job, which was to save lives. Or so I believed at the time.
A Double Standard?Over the years, I've often revisited that day when we cared for people in their final hours. I've wondered what I would want in their position, and truth be told, the answer wasn't broken ribs, intubation or a last gasp in the intensive care unit (ICU).
Like most physicians, I've seen far too many patients undergo painful, aggressive treatments that might (at most) extend their lives by a few days. It's certainly not the kind of care we'd choose for our loved ones or ourselves. And yet today in America, 29 percent of deaths still occur in acute care hospitals, and 29 percent of Medicare beneficiaries experience an ICU stay in the last month of life.
Which begs the question: if doctors reject heroic end-of-life measures for themselves, why do we so often take them with our patients?
Doctors: Going Down EasyIn my experience, physicians are unique not because of how much life-prolonging medical treatment they receive, but because of how little. Interestingly, for all the time and effort we spend to help our patients avoid death, physicians tend to face dying with acceptance and minimal advanced life support.
A few months ago, I ran across a fascinating study conducted by the Stanford University School of Medicine. The researchers were investigating whether doctors' personal resuscitation and organ donation preferences impacted their attitudes toward patients' advanced directives. (They did.) But what was even more striking was how universally the doctors in the study rejected aggressive life-saving measures for themselves. In fact, an overwhelming 88.3 percent of the participants said that when the chance of recovery is uncertain, they would choose "no code" or "do-not-resuscitate" orders.
While the Stanford team is perhaps the first to put numbers on the issue, many physicians have also remarked on this tendency. In his touching 2011 essay, "How Doctors Die," Ken Murray, MD, notes:
"I cannot count the number of times fellow physicians have told me, in words that vary only slightly, 'Promise me if you find me like this that you’ll kill me.' They mean it. Some medical personnel wear medallions stamped 'NO CODE' to tell physicians not to perform CPR on them. I have even seen it as a tattoo."
Patients: Fighting for DignityIn a way, these findings shouldn't be surprising. Study after study shows that most people — doctors and non-doctors alike — want to die at home surrounded by their loved ones. Other attributes presented for the ideal death include having a sense of control over healthcare decisions, being without pain and trusting one's providers to make sound choices.
Contrast these desires with some current realities about death in America:
- Half of all Americans die in a hospital or nursing home
- More than a quarter of hospice care is for three days or less, and 40 percent of these "latecomers" only arrive after an ICU stay
- Thirty-two percent of Medicare dollars are spent on repeated hospitalizations in the last two years of life
- Aggressive EOL care does not appear to improve outcomes for patients with chronic, life-limiting conditions like cancer and heart disease
Roots of the ProblemSo why do doctors administer so much care that they would not want for themselves? One reason may be that we are trained to recognize our success through our actions. That's probably one reason my student self considered our EMT ride-along such a success. In my relative inexperience, I saw prolonging life, no matter how briefly, as the very essence of my job. It took many years of experience before I was able to balance my duty to preserve life with my equally important duties to prevent needless suffering and preserve human dignity.
Another reason physicians continue aggressive, life-prolonging treatment is to indulge the family’s needs — sometimes at the expense of the patient’s. “Please doctor, do everything!” They tell us. As physicians, we need to remember that many people are unrealistically optimistic about the efficacy of lifesaving measures. Their experience with resuscitation is likely limited to movies and TV, where CPR is usually successful and the patient recovers immediately and fully. (Remember the scene in Jurassic Park where it works so well that the child wakes up and finishes his last sentence?) However, doctors know that in reality, only 3 percent of cardiac arrest patients return to their normal lives.
Finally, allowing patients to die can also bring up our own feelings of inadequacy. For physicians, a death on one's watch can be a very personal kind of failure. Opting for less aggressive treatment often provokes feelings of guilt or makes us wonder if we are "abandoning" our patients. At least when we are aggressive, we know we've done everything we can.
Learning New Ways to CareSo how can physicians recognize when further high-intensity care is futile and even detrimental? According Vyjeyanthi S. Periyakoil, a palliative care expert and lead author of the Stanford study, the first step is to get honest with ourselves:
Easier said than done, right? Changing the goals of treatment, or even broaching the subject, feels momentous. But we can make it a little bit easier (and less personal) by reaching out:
“Our current default is 'doing,' but in any serious illness there comes a tipping point where the high-intensity treatment becomes more of a burden than the disease itself.”
She goes on to note that doctors aren't trained to talk. But comfortable or not, end-of-life care is fundamentally about communication. Physicians must take the necessary time to inform patients and families about realistic outcomes and options. We must listen and be candid. And we must prepare for these conversations by familiarizing ourselves with palliative care resources in our hospitals and communities.
"It’s tricky, but physicians don’t have to figure it out by themselves. They can talk to the patients and their families and to the other interdisciplinary team members, and it becomes much easier."
These conversations can be challenging, but can also be extremely rewarding and empowering for our patients. There's no doubt it's what I want for myself at my life’s end, and if it's good enough for me, who am I to deny it to others?
I hope in the near future, we can mitigate the disparity between what we want for ourselves and what we offer to our patients. Certainly, we are brave to fend off death, but sometimes we are even more courageous in allowing people to die with dignity.
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